Most of you who know me, know that I’ve been involved in Bayou Classic Wrestling for over a year now. I have enjoyed the work it required and the fun and people involved in it. Lately, things in my life have become complicated and the demands on my time from everyone has increased. I’ve tried in the recent past to limit my time and energy spent on BCW so I could spend it on other things that I need to do, but I have failed in that aspect.
I have lots of things I want to do and my big 4-0 is coming soon and that has me thinking about things. Everything in fact, from how good a father am I to how good a son am I to how good a programmer am I. I know lots of people will tell me I do a good job at those things, but it’s never really enough for me and I see flaws in all aspects of my life that I’d like to improve on. The time isn’t there right now for me to improve on anything, so after a long discussion with Victoria, we decided to quit BCW and use the time and energy spent doing that to increase the other parts of our lives.
I work very hard Monday through Friday and I love my job even though it’s incredibly challenging. The challenge is actually what I like about it. I’m a ‘learn a new thing everyday’ person and my brain never stops analyzing things. When it comes to the weekends, I have household things to do, grass, cleanup, wash clothes, play catch with Grace, and lots of other things. I find I’m too grumpy after dealing with the BCW politics and problems to enjoy any of those things on the weekends. As my M-F job pays really well and BCW has only cost me a LOT of money so far, it’s a no brainer which has to go if I want to be able to relax once in a while.
The truth is that I’ve been unhappy about parts of BCW since the Franklin show and put my negative thoughts aside to try and make it work because I don’t like to quit. Last night 3 straws broke the camel’s back. I won’t say what those straws were, but each one individually was enough to push me over the edge, all 3 were overwhelming.
I would like to remain friends with everyone, but realize that I need to make a clean break from BCW to regain my peace of mind. So, if you want to email me and talk about the weather, football, or something other than BCW, please do so, but this is the last I’ll mention about BCW and I really don’t want to talk about it again.
One last thing before I go, I really don’t want BCW to fail and I think it has a shot at making it. That is why this has been brewing for some time but I’ve been very reluctant to make the move. I want you to watch the old practices and see how far you and BCW have come. It doesn’t seem like far when you travel it, but when you compare the before and after, it’s a dramatic change.